Made a way
Don’t know how but You did it
Made a way
Standing here not knowing how we’ll get through this test
But holding unto faith You know that
Nothing can catch You by surprise
You got this figured out and You’re watching us now
But when it looks as if we can’t win
You wrap us in Your arm and step in
And everything we need You supply
You got this in control
And now we know that, You made a way- ‘Made A Way’ by Travis Greene
Two years ago my Master’s degree journey began. Unexpected and unplanned. I entered a 3 year program with no idea how I would pay for it or how I would manage it as it was a course work based program. It would require endless 5000+ word assignments and even more reading than I’d ever done before. As I type this, I am still in shock. In total, including the countless books bought, it ranges between R50 000 to R60 000 that has been spent for that degree. Of which, less than 50% came from my own pocket. The rest was covered by academic bursaries and so much favor from God. I finished that degree in two years, three months and graduate summa cum laude (with highest distinction). The reason I mention the cost and the result is because neither of them could have been done in my own strength and abilities.
People have asked me what it now feels like to have a Masters degree and what I plan to do with it. I don’t have the answer people expect. The degree does not add anything to my identity or my self worth. So it has not changed how I feel about myself necessarily because I am not defined by my accomplishments or abilities.
It has however, changed or grown my view of God. I have experienced His provision,His love, His protection, His guidance and His help in tangible ways. I have witnessed my impossible become possible and in so doing it made the Scripture “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” (Phil 4:13) come to life. The song quoted at the beginning of this entry has become extremely relatable during this time because I really don’t know how but He did it, He made a way.
As I got closer and closer to the end of my degree I began to wonder what I would do once it was over. I was not working full time during my studies and had no real plan as to where I would go once the studying was over. Through it all though, I have kept teaching swimming. Swimming and teaching are two of my passions so when I get to combine them, my world lights up. Amidst the uncertainty of my future, in comes a breath of fresh air in the form of a “fiesty, driven woman with a heart of gold”. She appeared unexpectedly and soon after our introduction, she offered me a job. It all seemed very unreal at the time because what she proposed sounded too good to be true. I remember sitting in a meeting where the offer to join her foundation was given to me. In order to decide my response I knew that I needed to find out the most important information. Which was to ask her what her motivation was behind her organisation. Why she does what she does and what she hopes to accomplish through it. I knew that I didn’t want to work for any one who was solely interested in making money and only cared about furthering themselves. I’d worked for enough people like that and it was draining and unpleasant to say the least. I was not going to get into an environment like that again.
When she answered me, I not only could hear the passion in her voice but I could see it in the way her face lit up as she spoke. I knew instantly that this was the place for me, a place where we shared a love for children, for uplifting the community and a desire to build a legacy. In the days and months that followed I came to experience the heart of God in ways I never knew possible, all through this one person. The way she sees others, her heart for people and in the way she always seeks to be fair and honest. I see God in the way she does things, I experience His heart in the way she treats others including the way she treats me. And the beauty in it is that she doesn’t even realise what a Godsend she is.
Recently I was asked if I’m happy. My answer was simple. I have never been as happy as I am right now and I have never enjoyed what I do as much as I am enjoying what I do now. I get to use my degrees as the situations require but I am not defined by my qualifications. My job causes me to grow my character more, it relies on my intellect, my heart, my passion and on my desire to make a difference. It brings out the best in me and I could not imagine being in a better environment.
Through a crazy step of obedience that led me down a path I would never have expected to go. Getting a degree I never dreamed was possible, in a manner I never knew was possible for me either. After all of that, I find myself in a job that I never knew was possible but is everything I could have wanted and so much more. I don’t know how but He did it. I don’t know how but I’m grateful. God made a way.